Thoughts drifting back and forth

In the same realm as Street Fighter and Mortal Kombat, DOA has great energy and style.  This film was fast paced with sexy women kicking some serious ass!  The only thing I can say i didn’t like about the film was that it didn’t come over to the US and i had to watch it online.  Poor mistake because I know many people would have seen it just for the nostalgia of the game.

I give this film 8 & 1/2 kicks to your face!

The thought of living double lives have fascinated me for some time. After watching the film “The double life of Veronique” I had to sit down and think about how it made me feel. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0101765/ . With films like Fight Club, viewers find out that a multiple personality is coming out and the film has a nice clean ending. This film was different because it wasn’t exactly about two people living identical lives or a split personality, but rather someone connecting with another person, almost spiritually, without meeting that person. Although commenting fully on this film would take more than a thought, but rather a full film review, so I’ve decided to write about my thoughts after i watched this film

My first thought circled around a dream i had a few years ago about a girl i’ve never met. She had dark hair, fair complexion, and was about five feet four. I remember finding her in an alley, either behind a bar or in an abandoned loft apartment. Either way the lighting was coming in from above and I could feel wind hitting my shoulder and back. We met, laughed, held each other and kissed, then I walked away. The feeling of being in love or complete was overwhelming and it took me a while to snap out of it in the morning. I remember wanting to see her again in my dreams. Asking to run into her again, almost as if she was real. Almost as if she was somewhere dreaming about me, or maybe we were on another plane of existence not known to us now but will be revealed later or even after our deaths. Although i remember the dream vividly, we did not meet again. Even with trying to lucid dream to get back to her, it never happend.

I believe this kind of connection between something that is real, like reality, and something that is not so tangle, like our dreams, is something that can soothe the soul. The romantic dream between lovers who never met before and will never meet again fills me with questions like what is love, what is reality, and why do we dream.

Hello everyone who reads this.  Today i’ve added much under the category religion and under religion-journals.  These were written for a religion class back in spring of 2006 so much will be dated, unorganized, or even not making sense.  I’m hoping adding some papers from class brings in come new people and adds some girth to my blog.

Today I went on a date with my girlfriend. The thought of a lovely night together makes me happy, but the actual event usually ends bitter sweet. After slinging rocks at a target, we went for ice cream and then a nice walk around the bluffs. The mosquitoes were eating us faster than we could eat our treats, so we left soon after. On the ride back home conversation turned. I realized she was becoming more nervous and anxious by the second. Little things in our conversation soon became personal insults to her. To give an example, i laughed at the name of her ice cream and she thought i was laughing at her for getting it. Finally I turned into a strip mall and she freaked out. The reason for her outburst was because i’m missing a tail light and it was safer to turn fast instead of slowing down and risk an accident. She instantly wanted to go home. Screaming things like if I care whether she lives or dies in my car and blowing up because i supposedly don’t care about my own. I took her home and am thinking about doing homework. I think she needs to see a psychologist and get some anxiety pills.

I just got a call from her. She’s coming over to watch a movie. I think she feels bad about blowing up. I wonder if she’ll want to talk about it?

Fear of turning this blog into a giant rant of my current relationship has crippled the making this blog for too long.  The  awkward humor in my life can not be filtered, so why should my blogs.  Let me unleash my opinion and thought for you to look inside and question your own paradigm.